Time flies quickly, it seems like yesterday that I was among the school desks .. with my messed-up head that I was daydreaming about how I would be and where I would be for my 30 years, the first disappointments, the first tears shed for false friendships and wrong loves, how many times .. so much I go to live in Milan .. only thing really happened..I dreamed of being a flight stewardess, a stylist, a child psychologist, a personal stylist or a manager … but never being a mother even if this desire has always been there, but little expressed ..I’m twenty years old I met the depression, the real one, which leads you to isolation and self-destruction, I saw the rebirth, mine, on many occasions where I thought I would never have made it .. I met the fear, that of losing my parents, I have known the apprehension that I have always avoided them, but lately it is often in my life , I have known many joys after so much pain .. people who used me but also people who brought me back to life.. so, my best wishes to me, that I saw and endured everything, that I laughed, cried and I got excited, best wishes to these 33 years .. working on the next goals!!
I’m obsessed with makeup, I love putting on makeup, creating special makeup and always using many products, over the years, the skin begins to suffer, the first fine lines begin, the first spots appear on the face … the first imperfections, the first skin gets irritated, then it becomes oily .. and ugly to look at! Removing makeup well can sometimes seem like a real mission after several products I finally realized my beauty routine
My first step is a simple make-up remover wipe , I use often L’Oréal or nivea ,i start with this to remove all excess of makeup, the second step is L’oreal skin expert with cleansing milk, which cleans and nourishes the skin, and after the tonic that cleanses the lunge and refreshes the skin; the third step is Drunk Elephant jelly cleanser , i discovered this jelly cleanser in San Francisco, from Sephora, and it was love at first sight, too bad that in Italy there isn’t, so I’m freaking out about finding it before it ends. Together I also took the cream, which I usually alternate with step number 5, but first I talk about the jelly cleanser, I use it as a simple soap and after removing make-up from the face, this cleans it 100% and the skin is fresh! Step fourth , is the botanical oil of morocco roses that helps the skin to elasticize, eliminate wrinkles and lighten the skin. the last step, is the night cream! i use essential care of Nivea, or Drunk Elephant night cream fabulous and amazing for mat effect.
so this is my beauty routine, because the most important thing is skin care always!
What love is frankly I haven’t understood yet at 33, one thing I know for sure, is that when you’re in love you experience sometimes disturbing bipolar phases. We pass from the joy and the explosive happiness, that anyone sees you, even those who really don’t know you know that you are in love .. know that in your eyes that spark, those little stars are because your heart emanates a crazy aura, until you finish always angry, depressed, suffocated by a situation sometimes too narrow, as if you are going shopping you are a size 14 and you insist on buying a 10 with the hope that you enter, but this is not … Love makes you live of those situations that, for better or for worse, mark you and remain imprinted, if you meet a person in love, but really in love, not with those who are fixed only with sex, he will tell you, being in love and loving is a wonderful thing .. but the It’s really? For years I have been searching for true love, the love for film, the one to miss the breath, the one that makes you think only of him, what your world only turns around Love, which makes you daydream , and that makes you look at the future with pink eyes .. Instead until now, I have done nothing but meet people who have deluded me, used and thrown away as if I were a sheet of paper, where to write a script and then realize that does not really like it and throws away, now all these “people” are married, have children, travel, have created a future with those dreams that once were mine, ours .. making me become cynical, making me lose all confidence in the word Love, making me believe that for me there is not that right person .. But I wonder, does the right person really exist? or they are stereotypes that we create as children, a bit like when we went to buy Barbie’s husband.For me as a child, my prince had to resemble the prince of Cinderella, growing up instead I realized that I was a bit like Belle, I was looking for love in hearts of stone, in Beasts to transform into wonderful principles, a pity that some once transformed they became assholes and disappeared. Although many don’t believe it, my heart has stopped beating, and now more than a disney princess I feel like Dave Jones of The Pirates of the Caribbean, my heart after several, disappointments is there in a box waiting for someone find the key ..
I loved, and perhaps too much, because in love as in friendship, I give all of myself, now that I think about it is also in the family but these are details, I loved without being loved, I gave all of myself, and even today, that of love I say I don’t want to know, I love without being loved, I keep wondering why? why do I want to hurt myself? for what purpose .. considering that later, he will disappear, he will return to another or worse, he will spit in my face what he has never actually tried for me, what I really wonder, do I really need this? Since I am happy even so, without anyone? and why should I be ashamed of my happiness? why if I answer that my priorities are now other people look at me as if I were a monster? Of one thing I am certain at 33, I love my life, I love being able to drop everything whenever I can, get on a plane and fly to the other side of the world without having to explain to anyone, I love going to the movies alone, listening to everything the film without anyone disturbing me, I love going shopping without being permanently controlled, I love my niece who is the center of my universe, I love my friends so much as to be oppressive, I love my family so much to devote all my energy to them. Because this is also love, because love is not just about having a half to contemplate, because the most important thing is to love yourself .. and if love doesn’t come amen I personally take another trip …
Feminist is not fashion thing or a mood ,is a moviment for the rights of all women in world , unfortunately in the world there are still people who think they can decide for us women, who thinks that our place is at home looking the children, that we cannot do male work, and no! We are the engine of the world, we are the force of life, we procreate and work hard, we do not complain and we never give up! we are perspicacious determined and dreamers at the same time, and it is thanks to us if many men find themselves where they are now, for years personally I have been told, shut up you cannot understand, or they are things that you women can never do, and I today at 33 years old I reply .. fucked up! and to those women who think that in order to move forward to live, to have something more out of life they need men who “keep” them I say open your eyes .. and believe a little more in yourself!<br>
Politicians want to tell us if and how to live our lives, they want to tell us that if we are raped is our fault, that being a female must be taxed for the good of the country, I say , they say a bunch of crap! A nation like the United States cannot yet have many states that prohibit abortion in the event of rape !! a state like Italy that tries to catch up with other great nations how can it not abolish the tax on sanitary napkins? why can’t you create a law that prohibits child brides? why does no one want because if a woman denounces a violent companion we have to wait for her to die and not even be given justice? get on our side? why doesn’t politics want to be on the side of women?